Oops....

As i usually do at this time of night, i'm too tired to do anything, but not tired enough to go to sleep and having exhausted all of my other options, I was just flicking around my address bar, pressing random letters and hoping I'd find something to spend some time on, when i pressed T, and this address came up. "Oh Sh*t" i thought to myself.

Sorry i haven't been posting recently, I have totally forgotten about it, and everytime i DO remember it I think "oh I'll do it later". Total procrastination on my part, and for that i am sorry.

I haven't posted on here since the 23rd of Oct, and as its...well 1st Nov now, its been......9 days? whatever, and to be perfectly honest, nothing has changed. I've been trying to convince some of my friends to go out and do something over the weekends instead of staying in and talking to each other over MSN etc, going to a club for a halloween party or going to a fair were just some of the ideas i floated about, but everybody seems determined to carry on, though we did get the concession of going to somebodys house for the evening.

It was actually a lot of fun, we played some guitar hero, sang some singstar (the guys totally beat the girls), and played about on the computer. Spotify was the main hub of the computer, playing some beat the intro and making videos of us dancing to some songs. It was actually a lot more fun than I imagined it would be (though i knew it would be fun haha).

Other than that it's been another pretty slow week. School is dragging on, we went back last week from a two week holiday. I've been buffeted by my friends that go to other schools about how they were on holiday and i was at school. A quick mention of my previous two week break was more than enough to shut them up. But i've decided that i really need to get my head down and work this term. Last terms end of term test were a bit of a wakeup call. German was, as usual, my strong point. 100%'s were the story of the term, while i picked up a meagre 27% in my physics test (albeit with NO revision). I did OK in my chemistry, though OK really isn't good enough for me, and my teachers LOST my biology test. Groan.

We recently got a letter about a trip to germany for the german a levelers and gcse...ers. We get to go to Berlin for 6 days, all good, language lessons every morning...still good, explore berlin in the afternoon...fantastic, and stay half board with a german family (2 per family). Uh oh. I am all for going to germany and everything, but I nearly left the room to find some toilet paper at that last one. It isn't that i have a fear of meeting new people, on the contrary, i think it's fantastic. However, I am an INCREDIBLY fussy eater (as my friends will testify). I am super scared that we'll be served something that I won't like and i won't want to eat it. It's incredibly rude, but were i to eat whatever it may be, i would most likely throw up. That...trait has held me back a lot the past few years, pretending to eat at parties, eating very little at meals with my friend's families...none of it looks good, but it's the only way i can get through it.

I know eventually I'm going to have to get through that phase, but it is much easier said than done, as I'm sure a lot of you will know. But I have confidence it will happen sooner or later. For example, I recently abandoned my hatred of chocolate and am now somewhat of a choccy lover (granted i am not fully there, but am getting there slowly but surely).

Well that's me for now. I'll try and post again tomorrow :)

Hasta la pasta mi amigos